my life is a movie, what about yours?

Yes, my life is a movie with constant replays of yesterday's episode and alternate endings.

I met my friend yesterday (let's call her Barney), she was with Kawayan Girl and Albularyo (of course I won't give their fucking names, are you fucking out of your mind?) it was aisle 28 and the world was in slow motion as I looked on my left and she was smiling, yes my friend called out my name but my eyes were focused on Kawayan Girl. It was the first time I met Albularyo and I was like "Shit, the bichesang Albularyo is here, she must hate me oh shit..." but she said "Hello". Social anxiety was acting up...

"Kamusta? Anong balita? Sorry I look like shit.", Kawayan Girl's words still resonates with me. She talked to me in tagalog and made me felt less intimated.

I kept asking Barney for information as if I was extracting it from a spy but the source was already there. "Bat hindi ako tanungin mo?" ... "baaah it's because I'm scared okay?!".

Dinner with Kawayan Girl and Albularyo (Barney included), was surprisingly not what I expected. I didn't think that they will be cool like that.

I relieve that period of time where I keep on thinking maybe I could have said something better. Or maybe have talked more than just open mouth but words just don't come out. Can't stop won't stop I guess.

All in all it was the longest 3 hours of my life. Just to see her smile like that, shit I was on a high and could not contain myself so I smiled ALL THE FUCKING TIME! Can I be any more weird than that?!

Yeah and even while I was writing this I was imagining they were reading this all together and making fun out of it and was thinking, "How fucking crazy is this girl? She's weird and fucking crazy all at the same time."

THE END.

And while I was writing was listening to Matisyahu, genre of Reggae : One Day, Sunshine, Time of Your Song, and Jerusalem are my favorites as of the moment.

what's your music? (part deux)

Do you sing? Yes, I can...
Are you any good? I think so.
What do you sing? Everything, I can sing anything...

Okay, I shouldn't say anything next time since my vocal cords are not really that flexible than I thought they would be.

It's really different when I sing an acapella and with a karaoke machine. I get nervous when I have a mic, I freak out knowing she's there listening to my freaky voice. Plus I haven't had practice, I just sing to myself nowadays in the bathroom. I should have not gone for "Insesitive" by Jann Arden, good Lord what was I thinking?! Okay I didn't select that song Ze Gelz had already pre-selected it so I just claimed it right then and there. Maybe I should have chosen any RnB or some bossanova something like that, but nah! I wouldn't have sang it beautifully anyway since I was so nervous and kept on thinking...shit I overthink when she's around. I wish the ground just opened up and then swallowed me whole that time.

Lydia is still on my playlist with their latest album "Devil", I personally like "The Exit" and "Holidays".
Birdy is really a great singer, I can feel the emotions on what she sings, "Skinny Love", "Wings" and "Standing in the Way of the Light" are on repeat. Okay what's wrong with me and indie music? I am becoming a real hippie now.
Oh yeah, I do have mainstream music which is "Not A Bad Thing" by Justin Timberlake. Wooh!

Come to think of it, I should have a ready set of playlist to sing on karaoke machine, on what to play in acoustic guitar...you'll never know when it might come handy.